Shelli Roberts

There are a lot of things going on in the world right now that are completely disgusting to me. I know many who just rage at the injustice, the inappropriateness, the misalignment between values. I prefer to be a Compassionate Disruptor instead – it is a MUCH more empowering way of Being in the world amidst turbulence and chaos, AND is easier on one’s blood pressure. If you are challenged by the waves of change with difficulty like I am and prefer to avoid feeling powerless in the face of it all, I invite you to embrace this alternative mode of being that is centered in heart-mind-body coherence.

How to shift out of anguish and into peace
There was a long period of my life where all I could do was get through each day. Coping. Keeping my head down and just putting one foot in front of the other (barely). I was a puddle of a human on the floor of life; alone in my misery; financially broke, emotionally broken, and feeling useless and ineffective as a parent and a person.

Science is catching up to what shamans and mystics have long known – that our mind and emotions create our reality. This is incredibly powerful to realize – that your imaginative faculties can literally change your body and your life. Shamans take a “Future Walk” to plant seeds for a desired outcome for themselves and their tribe. Have you ever taken a guided journey to “meet your Future Self”? This is very much like experiencing a guided visualization. This practice guides the participant into a relaxed and receptive state and introduces the energy of a desired experience in the NOW moment. It then introduces imagery that can catalyze a new way of thinking or seeing something – a new energetic perception that invokes a certain feeling like joy or expansiveness, gratitude, and abundance.

For me, Spring is a time of new beginnings and new growth. There was a spring season in my life when I was rebuilding my self-identity and self-esteem after prolonged narcissistic abuse since I had none left after those experiences, I was the opposite of resilient. I look back in awe on that recovery journey – all of the steps I took- and all of the inner landscape that I rebuilt over many years with little to no support.

What would a life of FREEDOM look like for you? Freedom from oppression and fear? From anxiety and self-doubt? From judgment or ridicule? From debt and financial worry? From anger or resentment? From grief or heartache? From a release of trauma bonds?

My inner peace has been hard won. After a lifetime of trauma and narcissistic abuse, I had PTSD, was exhausted and was going through the motions, literally hiding from life. I felt like an inadequate parent and provider, doubted myself at every turn, and just wanted to crawl into a hole and stay there. I felt alone and like I had nowhere to turn. It was MANY years later that I was able to reclaim my self-esteem and confidence- after a very long healing journey. I didn’t have the tools or awareness at that time that would have sped my healing.

I have spent most of my adult life searching for meaning and fulfillment. It’s only been in the last five or so years that I have found it. By usual standards, I was very successful. Still, each accomplishment, recognition, award, or kudo never seemed to fill me with pride or fulfillment. It was just “what I do.” I was driven to succeed from a deep place of need but was unaware of that need, and it was a deep hole that was always impossible to fill.

I was in a session with my favorite shamanic medium mentor. It was my final check-in for the year, December 2023. She usually started our time together with how my Higher Self presented to her and this session was no different. She said she usually saw Me riding on a flaming motorcycle across the sky but this time the flames were not on a motorcycle. I was riding a Fire Dragon! It felt like a Clarion Call to action with the Dragon realm!

Self-sabotage is a form of resistance that can stand in the way of your success in life and business. It can take many forms; self-doubt, procrastination, perfectionism, social fears – and has some form of fear at its root or a limiting belief that we may not even be aware of. This lack of awareness that we are even doing it can impede us from our success by distracting us from our goals or blocking us from doing the most needle-moving things for ourselves or our business. It can cause us to waste our time and energy on things that are not as important or as urgent. Do you know it when you see it?